Hello, So i thought id start this just to get some things off my cheats when i feel the need to do so.
I moved to Wamego, Ks in August 2010. I like it here.. but i dont .. Is that weird?
Its really beautiful here but there is nothing to do.
We live like 45 min away from the base, so i cant even really meet other Wives.
I dont know anyone here. I feel alone.
If i didnt had my kids here with me, I dont know what I would do, prolly go crazy or something.
Right now we are planning on moving closer to the base.. closer to Manhattan (next bigger town)
So i can do things and get to places.
I really miss my friends and Family in Germany..
Its so hard to not knowing when and if i ever get to see them again..
Even if i am planning on going to see them .. i dont know if i have the money to do so and since William will get out of the Army soon, I wont be able to the the Space A anymore... witch sucks.
Now i found out that my dad will get married in Jan and i wont be there with him.
I feel like i am missing out on everything... I watched my sisters daughter Celine grow up her whole life..
Now i wont be there anymore.. to do so.. All i have is pictures.. Kaylee he youngest wont even know who i am.
This really sux and hurts so bad.. But what can i do?
I moved here.. because of my husband. I cant stand to be apart from him. No matter how much a pain in the ass he is sometimes.. No matter how lazy or whatever.. He is the man i want to grow old with...
I would do everything for him.. COME ON .. i was willing to move to SOUTH KOREA with him..
They say ...with time things will get easier.... but i think it just makes it harder...
I just miss out on soooo much...
This year was so sad... Both of the boys b days.. we didnt really do anything.. cuz we didnt knew any kids to celebrate with...
I really hope that things will get better soon.. That we will meet ppl.. and kids for my kids to play with...
I know i should put them in Day Care.. but ....
I DONT WANT TO BE ALONE..
&& until all the papers are done... i cant work..
Ugggghhhhhh ... Life sux sometimes...
Ohhh well.. i guess i just need to suck it up.. and move on...
Thanks for reading....
3 comments:
Hey Liz...
sounds like you are having a hard time right now. i understand what you are going through. I'm here for almost 7 years now and i know how hard it is to be 1000's of miles away from your family.But things will get easier over time. You know life always sucks before it get's better, at least for most people.
But i think you should put the boys in daycare. Even if it is only for half day. They need to get prepared for Kindergarten and they need to socialize with other children. That way you can get to know other moms as well.
Good luck...
Well right now..we have to see n wait.. when and where we move before i can put them in day care..
I know its not fair for the kids that i waited that long.. I just thought i would go insane if i dont have them here.. So now i m trying to find things to do .. so i am busy while they are gone..
I can tell by Deans behavior that he needs to do something. Being at home all the time does not do him any good!...
I m working on it :(
Thanks Marina
Liz, the first year was really really hard for me too. I missed my family and friends and I thought things would never get better.
I have bin here for almost 4 years now and its not that bad anymore.
I still get homesick, but its not as often anymore.
Once you meet some people here and maybe start to work it will be better.
I wish you where not as far away though :-(
stay strong, you can do it!
Love ya,
Alice
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