Through Thick And Thin ~ For My Bestie Bianca

I could skip a heartbeat, and I would survive,
I could be in a car crash, and still be alive.
The clouds could fall out of the sky, 
The oceans could disappear, and all turn dry.

These things in life are all bad I know, 
but there's far worse things, 
just thought you should know. 

Life would not be the same without someone like you,
You're there when I need you to help me through.
Through the good times and through the bad,
Be them happy, or be them sad.

I don't have to be with you, to know you're there,
We don't have to see each other, to know that we care.
We could be apart for years upon end,
and still remain the best of friends.

Life goes on, and people change,
And through it all, our friendship shall remain the same.
That's such as a life, and how things come to be.
Just thought you should know,
HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME.

3 years Baby

I cant believe it, 3 YEARS already..

Sunday, the 10 of July 2011 me and the Love of my Life been married for 3 years.

Its crazy how fast time goes by, dont you think?

I remember it like it was yesterday, when i said I DO {Ich will, haha}

We have our ups & downs i think everyone has them { woud be kinda boring if it was all the same all the time anyway , lol } but so far things been GREAT... 

I have never loved a man, as much as i love him.

&& i know he feels the same... 

I cant wait to see what the future has waiting for us.. Maybe out wanted baby girl?? HAHA

I m sooo happy with what i have.. i could not ask for more.. 

Christmas...

Christmas is over... 

It wasn't as bad as i thought it might be.. 

Yeah i missed my family.. more then ever.. but.. my Family here.. made it good..

It was nothing like i was used to... 

In Germany.. you open everything at night after dinner on th 24th.. 

Here in the US you do one at night on the 24th .. and the rest in the morning of the 25th...

So .. in the morning of the 25th .. the boys woke us up.. of course they could not WAIT to get to grandmas house.. 

So I called my family in Germany real quick .. wished them a Merry Christmas.. and told them how much i missed them.. and wished i could be there.. 

Then .. we all got dressed.. and went over to my mom in laws house.. 

(She only lives like 5 houses down the road :) )

So when we got there.. we got everything ready... and then let the boys unpack their things..

They were so excited.. :) 

Didn't cared to much .. about the clothes they got... But LOVED their toys.. 

There is no greater thing for me .. to see my kids smile and be happy.. so when they are happy .. I AM TOO... 

I will miss home.. no matter what.. but i will try to make the best out of it here.. ! 

I have my own little family here with me.. Thats all i should need.! 

And its not like i cant talk to my fam in Germany.. soooo .. I need to take a chill pill.. and calm down. 

Life is not as bad as it seems sometimes.. 

But we all have our days.. where we hate everything.. and just feel like crying all day. 

I am excited to see what the New Year holds for me and my boys. 

...........

I love you ... No matter how many miles are between us.. you guys are ALWAYS on my mind.. ! 

MUAH.. to all my Schatzis... :)

Holidays...

Christmas.. 


This used to be my FAVORITE Holiday when i was younger.. now... not so much..
So many things have changed over there years.. and its nothing like it used to be..
I miss how we all where together.. My mom.. my dad.. & my 2 sisters...
Now..
Its just me  & my own little family.. Witch is very nice... dont get me wrong .. But this is all new & weird for me..
Not being able to see my mom.. or my dad.. my sisters... my friends..
Its just painful..
I love them all so much ..
There was a time after my parents split up.. where me and my dad stoped talking for almost 2 y (worst time in my life) .. And like maybe a year or less before i moved here.. me and him started talking again .. & i missed him soooo much .. now that things were getting better with me and him .. I had to leave..
I wish i could spent more time with him.. catch up on the time we missed.. but no.. now we will miss alot more time together..
I dont know... how long i can stand being away from my family ..
I know we have ups and downs.. and i bitch about them every now and then .. But they are MY family.. And I love and miss them soooo much ..
Now more then ever...
This is my FIRST Christmas away from them.. Away from what i am used too... Away from those i Love... i thought Christmas without my husband was bad.. But this .. THIS IS ALOT WORSE...
I wish i had the money to fly home for Christmas.. but i dont .. && I HATE IT

I dont know when i will get the money to go see them again ... it could be next year.. or years after that..
I dont want to wait that long ..
&& its not like they have the money to come see me.. so we are screwed ..from both sides..
It just sux.. and hurt .. sooo sooo much ..
I know i choose here to come.. cause i thought nothing is holding me in Germany.. but now..
I know i am closer to them .. more then i thought..
Its soooo hard.. to call my mom .. to hear the pain in her voice .. cause she misses us..
Its hard to be strong .. when you  really just want to break down and cry .. but you play cool.. to be strong for them ..
Sometimes i ask myself .. if it was such a good idea to come over here...
&& its not about my husband.. things with him and me.. could not be better..
Its just alot of other things.. I dont know..
I hope things will change soon .. Cause i dont like it how it is right now.. !!!

Mom.. Dad.. Corinna.. && Bekky .. I miss you guys.. SOOO SOOO much ..
More then i thought i would.. Please give the kids a kiss from me.. and tell them Aunt lissy will be there soon .. I always think about you guys.. I will always miss you...
Please dont forget about me.. I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU... FOREVER.. UNTIL THE DAY I DIE....

Melissa feathers...

Life here in Kansas

Hello, So i thought id start this just to get some things off my cheats when i feel the need to do so.
I moved to Wamego, Ks in August 2010. I like it here.. but i dont .. Is that weird?
Its really beautiful here but there is nothing to do.
We live like 45 min away from the base, so i cant even really meet other Wives.
I dont know anyone here. I feel alone.
If i didnt had my kids here with me, I dont know what I would do, prolly go crazy or something.
Right now we are planning on moving closer to the base.. closer to Manhattan (next bigger town)
So i can do things and get to places.
I really miss my friends and Family in Germany..
Its so hard to not knowing when and if i ever get to see them again..
Even if i am planning on going to see them .. i dont know if i have the money to do so and since William will get out of the Army soon, I wont be able to the the Space A anymore... witch sucks.
Now i found out that my dad will get married in Jan and i wont be there with him.
I feel like i am missing out on everything... I watched my sisters daughter Celine grow up her whole life..
Now i wont be there anymore.. to do so.. All i have is pictures.. Kaylee he youngest wont even know who i am.
This really sux and hurts so bad.. But what can i do?
I moved here.. because of my husband. I cant stand to be apart from him. No matter how much a pain in the ass he is sometimes.. No matter how lazy or whatever.. He is the man i want to grow old with...
I would do everything for him.. COME ON .. i was willing to move to SOUTH KOREA with him..
They say ...with time things will get easier.... but i think it just makes it harder...
I just miss out on soooo much...
This year was so sad... Both of the boys b days.. we didnt really do anything.. cuz we didnt knew any kids to celebrate with...
I really hope that things will get better soon.. That we will meet ppl.. and kids for my kids to play with...

I know i should put them in Day Care.. but ....
I DONT WANT TO BE ALONE..
&& until all the papers are done... i cant work..
Ugggghhhhhh ... Life sux sometimes...

Ohhh well.. i guess i just need to suck it up.. and move on...


Thanks for reading....